i'm gonna stand guard like the postcard of a golden retriever...

that is a paul simon lyric, if you were wondering...

i am going back to school tomorrow. i am not quite sure how i feel about it.

i am going to be glad to see my friends and hang out at the bean and various other activities that happen to come along.

but i am going to miss my family. during both christmas and this break i have rediscovered how much i like my family. even my sisters. there is a large pull to stay here in sioux falls.

because of this, i am one hundred percent sure i will be living in sioux falls, in my parents house this summer. i need to, for my emotional wellbeing, i think. i will work some sort of mindless job that doesn't require me to lead in any sort of way, i will live with my family for the first time in three full years, i will actually get to know my sisters, i will sleep on a normal schedule, i will have people keeping me accountable about church (although this sort of comes with the territory when church is your dad's job) and all sorts of other things that i need in my life right now. some things i should have had all along, but i shut them out, or they simply weren't there.

i actually volunteered to be on a praise team, and even to lead a serve team this summer. ridiculous for me, the one who really doesn't like the institutional church at all.

in any case, i think this summer will be healthy for me.

this break, i read a book called "godless: the church of liberalism" by ann coulter. i told myself i wasn't going to read any theology, and i thought i was doing well because it looks like a book on politics. definitely huge theological statements in that book. many of which struck me. if you claim to be a liberal and a christian, read this book. she definitely has some interesting things to say. and it's hilarious. highly recommend it (and no, i don't agree with everything she says...but i think it is worth thinking about).