I do not do well with goodbyes. Even if it is just for a little while, I still am filled with a sense of loss. I suddenly become awkward and am unsure of what to do with myself. I hate that. I wish I could be full of grace and confidence - but I am not. I am just sad and feel lonely.
Tomorrow marks 10 days until I will fly to China. Tuesday night I begin training. And while I am excited, I am also beginning to experience a sense of anxiety, although I'm not sure that is quite the word I am looking for. I'm not sure how to describe what I'm feeling.
It is...
Partly a fear of what is to come, both in China and in the coming school year.
Partly a fear that this life-changing experience won't actually be all that life-changing and a partly a fear that it will be.
Partly a fear that...well, the list goes on and on.
My family was here for Memorial Day Weekend. It was nice. I tried to upload pictures, but blogger is not being my friend.
2 comments:
what part of china are you going to?
My dear Sarah,
It is and it isn't, it does and it doesn't, speaking from my experience at least. But, I think that both are good... maybe the best thing is to focus on hopes rather than fears.
When you come home from China?? Maybe we'll be there at the same time!?
All my best as you go out!
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